Letting Go

She flashes her huge kohl-rimmed eyes at me...

and the gleam in my own fades away

Instead of her usual bear hug

I've been getting only a cursory wave nowadays

She sashays into class like a model;

balancing nimbly on three-inch heels

And her new friends immediately surround her

Why do I suddenly feel like a living wardrobe malfunction

Looking down at my sneakers?

She's the life of parties and gatherings alike

And a complete chatterbox, who can brighten up anyone's day

But why doesnt anyone notice me?

Silently sitting in a corner;

waiting to have my say?

I envy her immaculate nails,

Her perfect clothes and hair

And I know I have a long way to go

before I can get till there...

You wont believe me when I say

that we used to be best friends

It really hurts me when people change

and relationships come to an end

It's like she's a stranger now

who wants to have nothing to do with me

Angry, sad, disbelieving, disheartened;

You tell me; how must I feel?

She's metamorphosed into a diva now

who turns heads wherever she goes

While I shuffle along inconspicuously

The 'nobody', her shadow

The next day, I fetch an old photo of two pigtailed girls

clad in identical tees and jeans

and tear it down the middle

My heart dully aches as I set fire to the pieces

and gradually feel a lump forming in my throat

Tears stream down my face...

I wonder what went wrong

Maybe we weren't meant to be friends all along...